In May 2009, I graduated from college.From then on, I began to look for a job.I know I have good web design technology.I know I have a lot to learn.I also know that if you give me a chance, I will succeed.I hope to achieve something.I am eager to make a difference.I can't do nothing because of my physical disability in this life.
I am a greedy student of web design.I keep reading.I always pay attention to the latest design methods and technologies.I learn various design principles and apply them to my work.All this makes me work with ease.In fact, I didn't get a real job by telling people that I work efficiently and my skills are getting better and better.My good friend Jeff Horton, the president of Stop SMA, asked me to work for their website, which has really helped me a lot in the past two years.
Earlier this year, I worked as a pilot in the Happiness development team of Automatic Company for a short period of technical work.To put it simply: it was a magical experience.I can work at home, just like other people work in the company.I met all kinds of excellent people.I help people through this company's WordPress.com blog.One win win win win triple win result.But I always remind myself that if my disability causes me to fail to complete my work well, I cannot apply for a formal position.My job is mainly to reply to emails.The slowest thing I do is to write emails.Programming seems easier.I have all kinds of tools to help me write programs skillfully.However, for old and young English, I can only write 18 words per minute at a maddening speed. Thanks to HippoRemote and KeyStrokes, otherwise it will be even slower.Let me clarify that Automatic did not use me by mistake.Our team leader said that she paid more attention to quality than quantity.They sincerely responded to my various requests and tried their best to provide me with the greatest help.I will always thank them for what they have done for me.But later, user support requests exploded, and I felt that my processing efficiency could no longer meet the requirements of the Happiness development team.For the benefit of the company and users, I terminated my trial in Automatic, and they gave me good compensation.Everything is back to the original point.
About three weeks ago, God seemed to treat me well.I submitted a Web related job application to a Mississippi company (I'm not going to name the company).First of all, I was asked to make a telephone inquiry, which was specially designed for some "special" applicants.The phone interview took an hour.The next day, I was called for an interview.I was confronted with questions from three people, and the whole interview process lasted nearly two and a half hours.Only a few people interviewed for so long, probably leaving me and another person.I said that I would wait here for news these days, no matter whether I was hired or not.
Three weeks.I still haven't received their reply.Maybe I had to renege on my promise and stop waiting (in fact, I didn't). They seemed to have hired another candidate. Their phone call was very tactful, which made me realize that I was defeated.I didn't complain, but soon I began to realize why I could win an interview but never get the position.To what extent does my disability affect my opportunities?I am totally unwilling to admit this effect, which is hard to swallow.
So I sat here.I sat at the desk where I wrote this blog.Somehow, I began to hear the program "September 1" hosted by Jeffrey Zelman and Dan Benjamin in The Big Web Show.The theme is very big, just like the title.Jeffrey Zelman is like the godfather of the web design industry. He influenced me before I dreamed of becoming a web designer.Dan Benjamin is a broadcasting genius. I am convinced that when talking about any topic, I will be like an expert in any field.(Beijing website production)
I heard it right here.One topic of their conversation hit my heart - disability.They are not reading any news report.They interviewed a magical woman, Marissa, who has experienced many things I have also met in the past two years.They are talking about her disability.She wants to be a web designer.She needs a job that can work at home.Jeffrey and Dan talked about her inner struggle, which was a magical experience.
As early as 2008, I managed to attend a famous conference aimed at website developers - An Event Apart.That was the most profound learning experience I had ever experienced.I want to take part again.But the journey is a great challenge for me.Hotels that can be accommodated are very expensive.The tickets for the conference are also very expensive.So I didn't go.I don't have any friends in the field of Web design.I am isolated from the world.It's hard to succeed in isolation.
But Marissa did.She attended The Big Web Show and told Jeffrey and Dan about things I didn't do - things that inspired me.While listening, my mother called me. She was very sad about my whole job search process. She asked me to go out for dinner and watch movies (Mom is always the person who cares about you most!).It was then that we understood one thing.
My future is not a dream.
Whether this company or that company employs me or not, I continue to design various websites.Every design will make me stronger.Marissa's story often reminds me that I am in the same situation as her.Although not identical, they are very similar.When I started learning Web design, it was very difficult.I can't go to design school (physically and financially), but I know I want to learn Web design.I was lucky enough to find a very good textbook: DrRodney Pearson's Advanced Language I.I learned basic Javascript and HTML.I began to accumulate knowledge of CSS and design.I started designing websites.Once started, it means half success.No matter how difficult the future is, I am tenacious and determined to achieve what I want to do.
One day not long ago, sitting at my computer desk, I realized that I had really become a web designer.I designed many websites.Although there is no formal work, it can't stop me from designing the website.My dream still exists.One day, something important will happen.I will succeed in finding my dream job.Or, I can become a successful freelancer.Even if these dreams cannot be realized, I can at least volunteer for charity organizations and do some personal projects to show the world my personal creation.
Dreams never die.When we tremble, we have dreams.We have dreams when people say it can't be realized.We have dreams when everything seems to be against us.Sometimes life seems helpless.But when we always have confidence in ourselves, when we have friends and family around us, when we have greater faith, what can stop us?